Either it's coincedence or.........?

Yesterday I went to the Vigil Mass at St. Rose of Lima Catholic church.
When I first walked into the chapel, my eyes went directly to the crucifix which was directly in front of me as I entered, and I instantly felt this peace, and a sense of awe. I felt as though even though I was walking and moving forward; I felt the Spirit pulling me forward. I felt the gentleness, truth, peace, and love, of the Lord Our God within and without of my self. I truly felt like I belonged there and that I was home.
(I also found out that Fr. Michael R. Sciumbato had been moved there. He is the one who taught the RCIA classes I took, and also was the one who baptized, and confirmed me, and First Communion! Interesting......)
Since I had been inactive with the church for some time I lost track of what the season was and all of that.
WELL!
It just happened to be the Solemnity of Saints Peter and Paul, Apostles. (St. Peter was the first Pope, and St. Paul was the evangelical/missionary part.)
This also happens to be the Jubilee Year in honor of St. Paul. And part of the message to all Catholics was one basically of reaching out to those who have stopped attending church for one reason or another and to encourage them to come back. Also, to spread the Good News of Jesus Christ to others.
It also was the day I came back.... The Lost Sheep per se. Coincidence?? Or not?
I am leaning toward not at the moment.
As I was heading home afterward I felt such peace and calm in my soul. I felt like my soul had been starving for that and was now fed.
The Catholic church hold a very special place in my heart and I know that will always be there.
Next week, we are going to go with my Mom to the LDS church... Keep in mind, I was raised LDS... I have quite a few disagreements with that religion.

Okay... So my daughter is off with her dad this weekend.
Sometimes it irks me to let him have the weekend with her, but I am not about to begrudge my daughter of having time with her father. I miss her right now. The house gets quieter when she is away.
I saw my therapist today. And we discussed how I tend to wait to do anything on my own cause I have tended to wait for someone to say it is ok. Or acceptable.
And right now I have am immense to exercise my individual rights as the intelligent, sentient, being that I am.
I always lived with this mis concept that I was subjugated to what other wanted me to be, or think, or feel. Which contributed to my not really knowing WHO I was. Now it is all coming out. The truth of who I am.
I find myself embracing it with open arms, an open mind and heart and soul. Embracing who I truly am and living that truth, instead of being and doing what others say.
I am so looking forward to being able to go into a relationship now with this new found strength and self awareness. So that I will be that strong, faithful, honest, loving, devoted wife and partner for my husband to be, as he will be for me. I feel that I am ready to open myself to this now.
More so I have opened myself to God. And making improvements with my relationship with God.
I still have the streak in my soul that wants to run and dance out in the moon and star light.
Looks like there is my next step. To integrate all three.

Religion and My Beliefs

Yesterday I saw my therapist. I discussed with her about things going on with my Mom and my daughter. Then we got on something that had been perplexing me..... religion.
I was born and raised LDS. Later in life I searched out various religions. Including Wicca.
Then after seeing a documentary on Pope John Paul II, I was compelled that, that was the way to go. I was in awe of what her had done through out his life. So I attended classes and was baptized Catholic.
Right now I am torn between which way do I go? LDS, of which all my family is; or Catholic. My family does know that I was baptized Catholic. The ward that my Mom belongs to is a sincerely friendly ward and they have helped her out so much since my Father passed away.
It was after he passed that I was baptized.
For me the Catholic church felt like home to me in a different perspective. I enjoyed going to Mass, yet because of illness and family issues I had stopped attending. I desire to go back and learn more.
I have always let others dictate what I do in my life. So I am going to take the reigns in my hands and do what it is I feel is the way for me.
My therapist says that I should do what is "convenient" and just go with my Mom. To me that says that I am once again letting others decide for me.
How I feel about God and religion personally is that God is a Being that is so great that we can't comprehend how great God is. I believe that God is neither male or female cause God doesn't have a physical body. Yet God encompasses both energies.
I also believe that we all believe in the same God yet forming different ideologies and faith around different fascists of God.
Kind of like with me. I can act and look one way one day and completely different the next, but I am still the same being that I am.
And Catholicism comes the closest to that belief. So I guess the decision is rather clear.
I also don't believe that God has any need for a human body. Why would the Creator of everything need human genitalia when God can create anything.... ANYTHING! Plus if God had a human body God would become limited and God is not.
So there is it is..... This weekend I am going to be going to attend Mass, and go from there. I have one concern though. My Mom. I feel that if I don't do as she wished that I will hurt her and she will be disappointed in me.