Not Again

Here we go again. Thinking too much into things and over analyzing the living crap out of everything. I hate days like these.
I wanted to find the perfect song for Steve to be his song from me and no matter what I find it is twisted in some way. The music is too hard and he'll never listen to it, or the words are just not right. I also question if I did do something like that for him, would it be appreciated or blown off.
I feel like hell emotionally right now. I feel far away from him. Maybe it's just today. Maybe it's because I have been on the computer so damn much. I don't know.
I feel that if I am out in the garage helping him, i just mess something up. So it just seems better to stay out of the way. I don't know.
I dread everytime his ex texts.
I don't want to face tomorrow.
Am I reading too much into things? I don't know what to think anymore.

Unwell - Matchbox20

All day starin' at the ceilin' makin' friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices tellin' me that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for somethin'
Hold on, feelin' like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me

I'm talkin' to myself in public, dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talkin' about me
I can hear them whisper, and it makes me think
There must be somethin' wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinkin', somehow I've lost my mind

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talkin' in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're takin' me away

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be yeah, how I used to be

How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be, how I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

Matchbox Twenty - Unwell (Video)