Really Picking My Brain

I want to write alittle in here today. But I am having to really pick my brain. So this may seem scattered.
Steve and I butted heads about how I walked off for a second to go get something when I was trying to get his SSN from him for a form I had to fill out and then he did the same to me later. But I didn't say a word.
Then I feel like a heel cause I lost my patience with him at Wal Mart cause I couldn't find him. But then he was really sweet to me on the way home.
I guess it is to be expected for us to but heads.
Last night I bought Maddie a Lego set of Darth Vader's Tie-Fighter. But she probably won't get it till next week. My stupid ex promised to give he would give her a birthday party and buy her that set of Legos. And just like I thought, he didn't follow through. He has always been that way. What a jerk.
Tonight on our way home, Steve and I listened to Stabbing Westward. The main song that I wanted him to hear was "I Remember". Cause it just seems like it would be something that both of us feel about us and our past.
Something that I notice is that I always feel weird and empty when he I am not with him. Just like the song "Disappear" by Hoobastank. The part I am talking about is this:

"There's a pain that sleeps inside
It sleeps with just one eye
And awakens the moment that you leave
Though I try to look away
The pain it still remains
Only leaving when you're next to me"

And I think I will include the lyrics to the song "I Remember", and the video, too.


I Remember - Stabbing Westward

Do you ever wonder where
We would be if we'd have tried
A little harder?
It seems like yesterday
That we were making plans
For the future
But it's been so long
Since I have known the truth
These dreams we've left abandoned
And I'm haunted by your face
And the memory of your kisses
Sweet kisses
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
We swore that we would never end
We knew our love transcended space and time
These memories slip away
The ghost of what we were
Is fading
But there is no more pain
Which is funny 'cause that night
I was dying
Now I don't even recognize
The girl I swore that someday
I would marry
But I can't forget her face
And I can't forget her kisses
Sweet kisses
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
Or how we swore that we would never be alone
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
'Cause I still can't forget your touch
We swore that we would never end
We knew our love transcended space and time
Do you remember?
God I remember so much



I am going to add in Hoobastank - The Reason also.


The Reason - Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you